Tweak: Growing Up on Methamphetamines Essay
Tweak: Growing Up on Methamphetamines
Beautiful Boy by David Sheff and Tweak by Nic Sheff tell the same story from different perspectives. David, the father of a meth addict talks about his struggles while trying to cope with the fact that his son was a meth addict. Nic tells his story first hand on the reasons why resorted to drugs instead of other things. The difference between the two styles of writing helps us understand what each person is really going through during the time the events were happening. Even though they are both recounting the same events it seems like two completely different stories, reminding us that there are two sides to every story.
Beautiful Boy starts off with stories about Nic’s childhood. David and Nic seemed like they were having the most amazing time, I remember wondering how it was possible for this perfect boy who was getting good grades, playing sports, living a relatively perfect life. David kept talking about his divorce and how he felt that it had affected his son, blaming himself for his son’s drug use. He is constantly thinking back trying to pinpoint the exact moment where his parenting went wrong. David made some mistakes along the way, like bringing random women over every night. When Nic started growing up David was being very lenient with him, there were signs where he should have known that he was hanging out with the wrong crowd but he just ignored it never imagining what would then happen to his beautiful boy. When things with Nic started going wrong, and he started disappearing for days, breaking into his family member’s house, David started driving himself crazy. Every day things such as telephones ringing or newspapers would trigger him, he couldn’t spend any happy moment with his other children because he would keep thinking about Nic and what he was doing and if he was okay or if he was in trouble. David ends up having a brain hemorrhage, and it wasn’t until then that he realized that everyone’s days in this world are counted and without any explanation or warning anyone could just pass away. That moment made him understand that sure, he really loved his son and wanted the best for him but he had to start living life for himself, his other children and his wife.
Tweak by Nic Sheff is told in a completely different way and perspective. Nic isn’t preoccupied with trying to find out where he went wrong. He was living life day by day, it seemed like he didn’t care or maybe didn’t realize what he was doing to his family. Even in times when he realized he was doing the wrong thing, feeling like he was dirty like he was staining the family, that wasn’t enough to stop; and the worst part was that that was at the beginning. He always felt like he wasn’t doing anything wrong, he felt like he was experimenting. That’s the reason why he never really got sober, he didn’t think he was at fault, he wasn’t doing it for himself, he was doing it to please his family. Nic was so selfish. He did whatever he could to support his drug addiction, even stealing something as minimal as 5 dollars from his little sibling. He really felt as if he could stop whenever he wanted to until he realized he couldn’t. It took breaking into his mom’s house and getting caught and having to decide whether he wanted to go to jail or rehab. During his time in rehab, he realizes a lot of things, that he really wants to live, that he loves his girlfriend but being together isn’t the best decision, that he loves and cares about the well being of his family. The most important and inspiring part of Tweak was the ending “and though I have done many shameful things, I am not ashamed of who I am.” I think its really important for someone in recovery to understand that what happened already happened and its time to move forward.